...the world is made of spider webs...
Updated: Jun 20, 2019
"When I came to understand that there are mythic patterns in all our lives, I knew that all of us, unbeknownst to ourselves, are engaged in a drama of soul we were told was reserved for gods, heroes, and saints." - Deena Metzger, Miracle at Canyon de Chelly
Diagnosed last fall with Complex-PTSD, I have been leaden. As always, when going through challenges I have required increasingly more depth from the tarot. It has not let me down.
Mental health practitioners consider this disorder a pandemic. If it were contagious (and I'm not convinced it isn't) the CDC would categorize it a plague. It is an invisible plague, traceable only by it's path of destruction. And it is expanding exponentially in our culture. The global climate has changed; the psychological storms have become tsunamis. They are gunning for our children in their own schools and churches.
Fortunately for us, we do now have resources to help us toward increasing mental health. Carolyn Myss says that psychologists are the shaman of the Western world, and I believe her. A talented counselor, like a talented physician, can light the path through dis-ease back to complete health. Not everyone has this available to them, but with a simple tarot deck, you hold a profound healing tool in the palm of your hand. It provides practical advise in the form of: DO THIS NOW.
So when I draw a tarot card, I ask for it's advice. How shall I move forward? Asking about this diagnosis, I drew The Hermit from my Rider Waite Smith deck. It happens The Hermit is my life archetype, nine on the Enneagram (we'll explore this more later.) I am one of the most stubborn people you will ever meet. You see The Hermit holding that lantern lighting the way out of the darkness? I'm not gonna light that sucker until all other possible light sources have been exhausted! Oh yeah...and I've redecorated the cave...because I want this to be easy and to be pretty. It isn't. I don't want to trust spirit, intuition, but I want to figure it out. If I could THINK my way out of this I would have; I can't.
The Hermit represents our inner light, not from the contrived cheerfulness of maintaining a positive attitude, but from Source. Will power won't serve us now, we must trust ourselves and the awareness of God within us. Look at The Hermit on this card - he doesn't look very cheerful. He's emerging from a long solitude, the dark night of the soul. All of our efforts have failed. Nothing has worked the way we thought it would. We have been forced to go within, to sit in solitude until solitude became a friend. Solitude feeds me now, it regenerates me.
The Hermit has come to trust in the power of his own benevolent intention, and when this card is drawn, it is time to leave the cave. Not for you, you're being told - but to light the way for some unknown soul whose unsteady footfalls in the dark are the only way down the mountain. The Course in Miracles teaches that we are never healed alone, and The Hermit reminds us that being alone has it's place and time, and that time has passed.
I can't imagine what I might have of value to offer anyone along the way; The Hermit reminds me it is not necessary to understand in order to move forward. I don't have to know the whole plan in order to begin. The tarot is like GPS - the vehicle must be moving in order for it to work. It gives us the next step, not the entire itinerary. It's a perfectly designed system that leads us toward health and well-being one turn at a time, lest we attempt to micro-manage the unfolding of the universe...not that I would ever do that, of course (insert laughing emoji face here)...